I Will Prevail

This past week was an interesting mix of pain, research, and productivity. I felt pretty crummy for most of the week, perhaps due to a weather system passing through. I got a few things done during the beginning of the week, like baking up two loaves of gluten free bread, but I spent most of my time on the couch. Researched a lot about sourdough bread-making. I also did some reading in one of my favorite cookbooks, Nourishing Traditions. By the end of the week I was feeling better and was able to make a loaf of GF sourdough bread that didn’t taste very sour, but was still very yummy.

Today I was superwoman! More

Update on Meds. and Pain Management

It’s been 39 days since I first posted that I was going to experiment with going off my medication (Metaxalone) for fibro. It went really well for awhile, but at about the one month mark I started having problems. I did take another dose of Metaxalone a few nights ago because my body was knotting up really bad. I was also having to take Tylenol a lot more frequently than I cared to, for pain and for bad headaches, which could be caused by my body cleaning out the Metaxalone. Honey wanted me to try arnica, so when we went to Whole Foods a few days ago we picked up a little homeopathic tube of arnica montana. I think it’s helping, or at the very least it makes it bearable. Honey grew up on homeopathics, so he’s had to tell me stuff like you can’t eat before/within 30 minutes of taking the pills, no caffeine near taking the pills, and not to touch the pills with your hands if you can help it.

Taking something homeopathic feels better to me, psychologically, because I feel guilty when I go the pharmaceutical route. All the research I’ve done, as well as what I’ve experienced, has forever tainted my ability to trust modern medicine. It’s really frustrating to me that today’s doctors can’t write out prescriptions (to my knowledge) for vitamins, minerals, etc. and people’s insurance will cover it, but rather insurance only covers pharma. medications. *big sigh. But that’s another topic for another post, probably for another day.

An Experiment

I’m currently experimenting with the medicine I take for fibro. (metaxalone). Normally I would take it twice a day, but I’m on my second day of not taking any at all. I want to see how far I can go without taking any (but with the help of Tylenol), and then see if taking it once a day will be enough to keep me on my feet. Why? Because I hate feeling drugged up, and lately that’s what the medicine has been doing to me. This afternoon I was able to work in the kitchen for a little bit. I felt awake and alive, even though I was in pain. I’m really hoping I can find some sort of balance between alertness and controlling the pain, because I really want to live my life.

P.S. Lest you worry, my medicine isn’t one of those that stopping cold turkey will kill you or anything. I’ve done similar things before (usually because I forget my medicine and then went on a trip or the pharmacy couldn’t refill my prescription in time), and I know enough about what I’m doing that this isn’t reckless. I am not suggesting other people go out and do the same, or anything like that. Gotta add that disclaimer to cover my own back, I guess, in this day and age.

Medicine

Since my diagnosis of fibromyalgia in January of 2011, I’ve tried a multitude of medicines and supplements. The prescription that finally worked was Metaxalone, the generic form of a pain reliever and muscle relaxer called Skelaxin. Without it, my body turns into a knotted ball of pain. The side effect of taking a muscle relaxer is that it can make me drowsy. It didn’t use to be as much of a problem, but now I’ve really began noticing how much the medicine slows me up once it really kicks in. It’s been my dream to go prescription free and use all natural methods to treat my fibro., but seeing an herbalist is at least $100, plus whatever treatments they prescribe, all without the help of insurance. For someone who’s living paycheck to paycheck (totally relying on my partner to support me), that’s just not in budget. Perhaps if I receive disability aid, then I’ll be able to afford an herbalist’s help.

This all came to mind because of how things worked out today. I was feeling pretty good, was busy cleaning up the kitchen, and then my medicine kicked in and I had to go sit down because I felt so out of it. I really think the side effect is getting stronger with time, and perhaps the medicine is becoming less effective at treating my pain.