I Want to Save the World… But How?

There are a lot of things in this world that are really, really wrong. People who are killed, families torn apart, children who are starving. So many of us seem set on promoting violence and war instead of peace. How many millions have died because we couldn’t get along and show love to our neighbors?

Then there are all of the problems that have come with industrialization and modern things. The great power of science is being used for profit instead of the good of the people and the very future of humanity could be at stake (antibiotic resistant illnesses, GMO’s, global warming caused by plastics and so many other things, polluted air and water, chemicals in our food and everything around us).

It’s a lot to take in, and once you have taken it all in, you’re left wondering, “Well… what now? What can I do?” More

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Article: Why “Zero Dark Thirty” Made Me Cry

Why “Zero Dark Thirty” Made Me Cry.

Haven’t seen the film myself, but I can understand and agree with what the author says. The bit about both sides thinking they are doing the right thing really hits home. I’ve often thought about that. Reality isn’t full of bad guys wearing black and good guys wearing white. Kill or be killed is a horrible way to live, but humanity has chosen that for thousands of years. That is certainly worth weeping over.

Update on Meds. and Pain Management

It’s been 39 days since I first posted that I was going to experiment with going off my medication (Metaxalone) for fibro. It went really well for awhile, but at about the one month mark I started having problems. I did take another dose of Metaxalone a few nights ago because my body was knotting up really bad. I was also having to take Tylenol a lot more frequently than I cared to, for pain and for bad headaches, which could be caused by my body cleaning out the Metaxalone. Honey wanted me to try arnica, so when we went to Whole Foods a few days ago we picked up a little homeopathic tube of arnica montana. I think it’s helping, or at the very least it makes it bearable. Honey grew up on homeopathics, so he’s had to tell me stuff like you can’t eat before/within 30 minutes of taking the pills, no caffeine near taking the pills, and not to touch the pills with your hands if you can help it.

Taking something homeopathic feels better to me, psychologically, because I feel guilty when I go the pharmaceutical route. All the research I’ve done, as well as what I’ve experienced, has forever tainted my ability to trust modern medicine. It’s really frustrating to me that today’s doctors can’t write out prescriptions (to my knowledge) for vitamins, minerals, etc. and people’s insurance will cover it, but rather insurance only covers pharma. medications. *big sigh. But that’s another topic for another post, probably for another day.

Medicine Update

It’s been 9 days since I posted that I was going off of my medicine, Metaxalone. I did take it once, at night, after 2 days of being off of it. Since then, however, I have taken only tylenol when my pain levels spiked. Things have gone much more smoothly than I expected. I’m not sure if it’s just taking my body awhile to work out the accumulation of medicine, or if I have done some healing since I last was without Metaxalone. I sincerely hope it’s the latter.

Since I went off the Metaxalone, I have had some issues, but I’m not sure if they are related in any way to the med. I’ve had dizziness, nausea, and a buildup of gas that has made me need to burp a lot (really bizarre). Otherwise, I’ve felt more alive and clear-headed! I hope that I can continue to function without needing anything that makes me drowsy.

An Experiment

I’m currently experimenting with the medicine I take for fibro. (metaxalone). Normally I would take it twice a day, but I’m on my second day of not taking any at all. I want to see how far I can go without taking any (but with the help of Tylenol), and then see if taking it once a day will be enough to keep me on my feet. Why? Because I hate feeling drugged up, and lately that’s what the medicine has been doing to me. This afternoon I was able to work in the kitchen for a little bit. I felt awake and alive, even though I was in pain. I’m really hoping I can find some sort of balance between alertness and controlling the pain, because I really want to live my life.

P.S. Lest you worry, my medicine isn’t one of those that stopping cold turkey will kill you or anything. I’ve done similar things before (usually because I forget my medicine and then went on a trip or the pharmacy couldn’t refill my prescription in time), and I know enough about what I’m doing that this isn’t reckless. I am not suggesting other people go out and do the same, or anything like that. Gotta add that disclaimer to cover my own back, I guess, in this day and age.